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Katherine (probus_tesla)
05 August 2010 @ 11:09 am
Which celebrity are you sick of seeing? Who would you like to see more of?


Tiger Woods and Lindsey Lohan. Enough is enough and I no longer care about either because the media has smothered us day and night about these two.
 
 
Katherine (probus_tesla)
05 March 2009 @ 06:56 am
What's on your list of dealbreakers when it comes to romantic relationships?


1. When his personal hygeine takes a nosedive.

2. Fooling around with someone else; I can't stand the thought of the left-over residue of someone else on the guy I'm touching.

3. Constantly lying. Yeah, I know...everyone lies. But I'm talking about the stupid, constant lying for no good reason of things like what he had for breakfast.
 
 
Katherine (probus_tesla)
04 March 2009 @ 11:37 pm
I made a big attempt to watch Life and Life on Mars tonight but only a lukewarm attempt at Knight Rider. Life was a rerun and a little depressing. I still like the chemistry with Reece and Tidwell. Life on Mars was confusing but then I was reading at the same time. My soon-to-be-ex-husband always said I couldn't read and watch TV at the same time, something I'd been doing since I had learned to read by the age of three, but now after all these years it seems to have come true. I must have lost a chunk of brain cells somewhere the past couple of years or maybe he took them along with my kitchen utensils when he left. I liked Gene's character a bit more this time but he's still over the top with his ranting and raving. Sam and Annie need to hurry up and do something before the show gets canceled. I flipped the channel to Lost occasionally during the thousand and one commercials but I've been lost on that show for quite a while now so I didn't stay. I'm not going to worry about it, maybe I can rent the DVD sets in some future time and watch everything in order.

I was reading Charley's Web by Joy Fielding. I don't think I've read any of her books before though she has several. A very good mystery with intriguing characters that aren't cookie-cutter normal. I was so hooked on the story that I sat reading it in the church parking lot instead of going inside for services tonight. I had my little mirror light on and happily read for an hour, eating pistacios and spitting the shells on the floor. All three children looked at me, horrified, when they came out of their Bibble classes to get in the car. Anyway, I jotted Fielding's name down so maybe I'll think of it or find it in the bottom of my purse next time I go to the library.
 
 
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Katherine (probus_tesla)
Well, I slept from about 9:30 until 12:30, moved to the couch and slept again until about 3:00 and then moved back to the bed for another hour. That might not seem very good to you but that's more sleep than I usually get. I think those first three hours did the most good.

I've got my fingers crossed that today will run smoothly but I still have a child that's not feeling well and I think another has to be someone this evening and I haven't even paid all the bills yet and don't see a slot in today's work and activities to fit it in. And, of course, everything hinges on just how sick the sick child is when he wakes up. Everything's hopping at work this week too, a lot of paperwork to be done and everyone is just unsettled. One co-worker had her schedule completely changed again yesterday and I'm hoping no one will interfere with mine. I don't think they can in any reasonable kind of way but then the key word is reasonable and that doesn't always apply to some people.

I poked my head out the back door and it seems very cold. The heat is continually running and I'm cringing to think of what our natural gas bill will be. I feel a bit lightheaded and need to eat something but I don't really want to cook. No one else will want any cooked food anyway except for the sickly one and he probably won't be able to eat much since his antibiotics are playing havoc with his stomach.
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Katherine (probus_tesla)
02 March 2009 @ 06:13 am
You're packing your bag for that magical desert island that happens to have electricity, a TV, and a DVD player—what five DVDs do you take with you?


1. Season 1 Supernatural set.

2. Revenge of the Sith

3. Pirates of the Caribbean

4. Iron Man

5. The Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
 
 
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Katherine (probus_tesla)
01 March 2009 @ 10:57 pm
If you could ask your pet any question (and they could answer you), what would it be?


Do you really love me as much as you seem to and would you miss me if I were gone?
 
 
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Katherine (probus_tesla)
I was looking around some of the book communities and one said to post the top five books you'd recommend. I didn't post there because they do that IP logging thing and I don't like that, it makes me feel like I'm being watched, so I'll post my list here.

1. East of Eden by John Steinbeck

2. The Riddle-Master series by Patricia A. McKillip

3. The Catcher in the Rye by J. D. Salinger

4. The Gabriel Hounds by Mary Stewart

5. Crocodile on the Sandbank by Elizabeth Peters

I keep thinking of more and more though. The Lord of the Rings books, Harry Potter, Nevada Barr's Anna Pidgeon books, Tanith Lee's Kill the Dead, Stephen King's Duma Key. I didn't list any Star Wars books, I'd have to do a separate list for them and I can't decide yet what my top five would be.
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Katherine (probus_tesla)
01 March 2009 @ 03:08 pm
I just heard on the news that Paul Harvey died. To be truthful I thought he'd already died a few years ago, I don't know why. Anyway, I used to listen to his "The Rest of the Story" on the radio every day during the noon news. That seems like a lifetime ago and I suppose it was in a way. I think they said he was 90 years old. But I liked the way he could tell a story and give a message without it feeling like he was trying to get you to see a certain point of view. I wonder if there is anywhere to see/hear his old messages?
 
 
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Katherine (probus_tesla)
I shivered my way through services this morning though the sun was coming brightly through the stained glass and I knew the heat was on. I just can't get rid of the chill around the edges. A group of three missionaries spoke instead of the pastor giving a sermon. These people had been to Mexico, the Phillipines, and the Honduras. They talked extensively about the help they'd given people in these areas and about the living conditions. But the whole time I kept thinking there was something strange and I finally realized they were saying nothing about telling the people about God. One lady asked them about it, something about how many people were saved, and the woman missionary kind of stuttered around for a moment and then said that the people didn't want to hear anything until after their basic needs were met. I can understand that...if you're without food/shelter/medicine for yourself and your children, it's hard to listen to anything, especially being introduced to a new religion...but she made it sound like teaching people about Christianity was just something that might be squeezed in at the last minute instead of it being the main reason they were sent to these places. It just bothered me. Our pastor was looking at them kind of funny too so I think maybe I wasn't the only one thinking they were kind of strange.



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Katherine (probus_tesla)
Another restless night and I'm still cold which is not a comfortable thing since before this winter I was always the "hot-natured" one. My mouth on the right side has a funny feeling, a funny do-I-have-another-tooth-going-bad feeling. I had two pulled last year after horrible toothaches that lasted for days and I don't want to repeat that experience.

I tried to read but my eyes wouldn't cooperate. I have a two-foot stack of library books and I've only read two of them so far. At this rate I might be finished by spring break, which incidentally is late this year, something like the second or third week of April. The windchimes are still clanging furiously on the front porch. Perhaps I should have taken them down before the strings get broken. Perhaps I should also go back to bed and convince myself to sleep...
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Katherine (probus_tesla)
WHY DO PEOPLE TEACH THEIR CHILDREN TO STAY AWAY FROM/BE FRIGHTENED OF CHILDREN WITH DISABILITIES? It's not right, it's not fair. I bit my lip and didn't say anything to the offending person though I dearly wanted to. I spoke to the child several times, thinking the other person would see that there was no harm in the child, but I think all it did was make her watch me suspiciously too. She kept a tight rein on her children and even moved to sit somewhere else away from the disabled child when the child got too close. I feel I should have done something else but I don't know what. I didn't think the person would be at all receptive to even a casual conversation.

I am so tired, I don't think I'll ever thaw out and I'm sitting here wrapped in the blanket I wish I'd had earlier today when sitting on the ice cold metal bleachers while watching the games. Tomorrow I'm putting a box in the back of my car containing blankets, extra socks and gloves, a variety of hats, and thermal underwear if I can find any. And cushions to sit on and a tarp to block the wind. I may not need it until next year but you won't catch me freezing my behind off again like I did today.
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Katherine (probus_tesla)
Soooooooo...it's back to winter and 40 mph winds and drizzle that's threatening to turn to ice any moment. And so dreary looking, thick dark clouds whizzing by overhead and not a peep from the sun. And where will I be all day? Watching baseball. Outside. A wonderful activity that does not go with cold weather. Football goes with cold weather, then I expect to be bundled up to my nose.
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Katherine (probus_tesla)
27 February 2009 @ 06:35 pm
Here's an Oscar Best Picture Meme that's going around:

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Katherine (probus_tesla)
26 February 2009 @ 10:56 pm
I came home at my lunch break today and ran into The Wicked Witch of the East, aka my sister-in-law. She was "checking on things" since our road is a bit deserted during the day and she worries about people stealing things. Some people are experts at deceit, they know just how much to mix enough truth with the lies. That means that even though she spoke the truth about what she was doing here...checking on the place and making sure it was locked up and detering anybody from thinking that nobody ever comes around during the day...her deep-down motive was not looking out for me or my personal belongings. It's obvious in great shouted but unspoken words that she still considers the place to belong to her brother and seems puzzled as to why I won't leave and give it back to the poor man even though I've lived here almost 14 years now and it's the only home my children have ever known.

But it was a calm day and I was on my best behavior and politely thanked her for checking on everything. My friend Susan says you can kill an enemy with kindness but I have my doubts that any strategy would effectively work on the oddity that is my soon-to-be-ex sister-in-law. The dog still hates her though and has the enviable ability...high-pitched headache-producing barking...to thoroughly irritate her though she'd never admit it. I gave him an extra treat when she'd gone.
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Katherine (probus_tesla)
I was standing outside earlier watching the clouds move over just a little sliver of moon. And wondering why I never noticed that the moon does not always look like a "C" sittinng up straight but can be one turned onto its back. Sometimes I find it a little scary when I realize there are so many things I don't notice anymore, haven't noticed since I was a child. I'm running around every day, working, taking care of things, but usually totally unaware of the natural world around me. Sometimes I wish I could go back in time to the strange child that I was, a child that noticed the stars and funny bugs on the ground and remembered all the little trails through the woods and was fearless about wondering off for hours at a time. But then I remember the bad days too, of being just a little too different, just enough different that the other children were leery of me. I remember the three years when I rarely spoke to anyone but close family and never looked at anyone else's face when they tried to speak to me. I didn't even know what some of the neighbors looked like because I would never look at their faces. And I wonder what eventually changed inside of me that I could finally go forward and make a life for myself though it was years after my original schoolmates did, go back to school, marry, have children, work a job, get along with people though never quite as comfortably as I should. Some days I wonder if the old me will ever come back and I find myself curious and dissatisfied with the variety of things I was labeled with because none have ever been a perfect fit.

Don't worry, I haven't fallen down the rabbit hole.:)
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Katherine (probus_tesla)
25 February 2009 @ 09:46 pm
If you had to give up one indulgence for 40 days, what would it be?
DR. PEPPER!!!!!
 
 
Katherine (probus_tesla)
23 February 2009 @ 04:24 pm
Who had the best outfit at the Oscars this year? Who had the worst?


Natalie Portman was beautiful and ethereal in her gown.:)
 
 
Katherine (probus_tesla)
Title: Different
Author: probus_tesla
Fandom: Star Wars: The Clone Wars
Rating: Rated G
Characters: Ahsoka Tano, Chopper
Word Count: 410
Disclaimers: I didn’t create these characters, this is fanfiction.
Summary: Ahsoka reassures Chopper after events in the “Hidden Enemy” episode.

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Katherine (probus_tesla)
Title: The Most Beautiful Creature in the Universe
Author: probus_tesla
Fandom Star Wars: The Clone Wars
Rating: Rated G
Characters: Anakin Skywalker, Padme Amidala
Word Count: Around 700
Disclaimers: Lucas’ characters, not mine; this is fanfiction.
Summary: Padme questions Anakin about the Diathim.

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Katherine (probus_tesla)
It was a very unsettling kind of day. The kids were like little monsters with their teeth bared at each other most of the day. Nobody could even be in the same room as the others. I even had to seat them separate at church. One was moody and in tears or angry, one was wired and trying to drive the rest of us insane, one was depressed and teary-eyed and vindictive because the other two were being mean. I feel like I've been in a war.

I peeked now and then at the Academy Awards but just couldn't sit and watch the whole thing. I think Heath Ledger got the best supporting actor award. I saw Natalie Portman and she looked beautiful, her dress more simply made than some others but she'd probably look great in anything. Angelina Jolie was beautiful. The news reports now are saying that the octuplet mom is trying to look and be like her, that whole situation with her is weird with her seemingly unconcerned about how she'll raise all those children, 14 of them. I know some have big families but there has to be a big support system for them too.

And I have been freezing all day. Actually I've been like this for days. I've always been hot when everyone else was cold, wearing short sleeves when everybody had jackets, sleeping under the fan, ALWAYS too warm. Now I've gone the opposite way and it's really strange and I'm beginning to get curious as to why it's happened.
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Katherine (probus_tesla)
I woke up a little while ago, freezing. Usually I like the house being a bit cool at night but not this time. The wind was howling again and the windchimes on the front porch doing more clanging than singing. I sat wrapped up on the couch and listened for a while, thinking about the bowl of wild rice and very seasoned beef that was in the refrigerator, but knowing it was not a good thing to eat in the middle of the night and still hope to feel good in the morning.:)

I think one child is sick. I got him back up at 10pm after listening to sniffling and choking for a bit. I gave him some multi-symptom Tylenol and he went on to sleep but I've a feeling he'll be worse when he wakes up. I'm concerned about another child because she was so QUIET before bed. Not that she's usually a fountain of information but she just kept her mouth clamped shut and nodded in reply. Then the other one, well I think she ate too much, what she had for dinner plus I think she raided the kitchen again, I'm surprised she isn't up with a bellyache already. Sometimes I worry about them all, especially since they have me as a mother, a job which I'm pretty sure I wasn't cut out for. But I love them dearly so I do my best at acting as a motherly mother should.

I've looked around on LJ and found a few things to read, a scattering of Clone Wars stories here and there. A lot of Anakin/Obi-Wan but I don't care too much for that, not that they weren't well-written/funny/whatever, I guess I'm too much of an Anakin/Padme shipper. I like all the little stories about the clones that are popping up.

I hunted up my old copy of 20,000 Leagues Under the Sea so I could read it along with ahsoka_tano's community. I could be reading a few chapters now I suppose, I can't even remember how the story starts off or when I last read it. Many years and children ago.
 
 
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Katherine (probus_tesla)
21 February 2009 @ 07:53 pm
I am trying to figure out how I ended up spending the evening with the soon-to-be-ex watching Walk the Line on television. My insanity boggles my own mind if that's possible.
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Katherine (probus_tesla)
Maybe I'll go to the movies today. Has anyone seen the new movie Push? I saw Friday the 13th last weekend and I think Taken is no longer playing. The rest I'm not very interested in seeing.
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Katherine (probus_tesla)
I'm sitting here thinking about how thoughtless many people can be. It's like they are in their own little bubble of a world. I know we all have selfish spurts but some seem to have an overabundance. I just don't want to end up that way but there's a fine line between being kind and considerate and letting people run all over you.

I'm trying to get used to writing here again. I have a lot of different thoughts in my head but can't seem to pull many out. I'm very disappointed that so far this year I haven't even attempted to write anything. Stories, I mean. Once I dreamed of being some kind of author but it's all dried up and been trampled on by everyday life.

And I've discovered I'm lonely. I've always had friends but I've always known that I needed a lot of time to myself so the feeling of lonliness is very unwelcome and an unsettling reminder of times during my childhood. I've found that the small group of people I considered "real" friends have gradually disbanded and moved on. I rarely talk to anyone I grew up with or went to high school with. I never see anyone I went to college with. There are people I am friendly with at work but I'm not sure that I want to take our friendships beyond the workplace. And then there's the estranged husband mess. People are sometimes leery of someone who's in the process of dissolving a marriage.
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Katherine (probus_tesla)
Okay...who set today on fast forward? I did get my hair cut and it seems like that's all I accomplished. Oh and I stopped by the store and bought a Dr. Pepper, block of extra sharp cheddar, deoderant, and face powder. Wow. Then I had to go back to work...yep, you read that correctly, the place I was trying to avoid for today...because a meeting got called at 2:00.

And who set the thermostat on cold again? What happened to warm and sunny? Oh, it's still sunny but it's bitterly cold and windy. So after I ran back out the door after the meeting, I shivered all the way home to find one child is not where she is supposed to be. Yes, she is in trouble. Especially since I will have to go back out in the cold and into town to retrieve her. And did I mention that the child and her schoolbooks are not in the same place which necessitates a trip to her school where she "forgot" her things in her desperation to run off with a friend to another friend's sister's sporting event?

I read another chapter of my book to calm myself down. Apparently after Revenge of the Sith there were still Force-users here, there, and everywhere. And Jax and Laranth meet back up but he won't even admit to himself that he has feelings for her. He's so dense sometimes. Hmmmm, the Inquisitor, Probus Tesla, has red hair. I like red hair. I hope he doesn't die during this book, he has a lot of promise of being one of those bad guys that you're secretly rooting for because they're so much more interesting than the heroes.
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Katherine (probus_tesla)
I am taking a day off. My paycheck will be short a day but I'll just have to live with it. The only things I really remember doing the past several weeks is getting up, going to work, coming home, feeding everyone, then falling asleep while trying to watch something on the TV. First off this morning I cleaned my kitchen thoroughly. Now you're probably wondering why I would do that on my little day off, but that kitchen has been an irritating thorn in my side for weeks. Now I feel a great sense of relief and freedom because it's all sparkly and disinfected.

I think I'll get my hair cut today. I've worn my hair long the past couple of years after trying several different looks. I like that it's long and I can do all sorts of things with it but I'm thinking maybe more layers but still where I can make it look nice and neat for work.

There is a new bookshop in town too that is on my list today. It's been there for MONTHS and I haven't even been inside. That's not natural for me. And I think I'll do Mexican for lunch. Food, that is. Nobody in the family likes Mexican food except me so I think I'll order me a big nice meal to go. Maybe I'll eat it down on the riverbank with the ducks since it's such a beautiful sunny day.:)

I've also been trying to read the latest Coruscant Nights book but haven't gotten very far. That's really shameful. I once could have read it in one sitting. Now my brain's fried and I can't concentrate and I KEEP FALLING ASLEEP. Is this all a sign of aging or of overwork? I don't think I'm bad off enough to say I have burnout but I'm definitely not working at 100% anymore either. Anyway, the book's the third one, Patterns of Force...there's something awkward about that name...and is where I got my username from. Probus Tesla is the Inquisitor, I suppose you could call him one of the bad guys, but a very intriguing character. Yes, I am a shameless Star Wars fangirl, always have been and always will be.

So now I'm off to get the hair done and some shopping before picking up my lunch. I'm hoping I won't see anyone I know though I would not mind meeting new and interesting people. I don't have enough friendly people in my life.
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